My dearest Kolin,
You, my son, are the light of my life
It is only your smile that can reach the deep and dark crevasses of my heart
Your eyes, so bright, speak to my very soul
I’m sorry that life has not always been kind to you
You have endured so much
But I swear that you make it seem so easy
You are so strong and determined
A true fighter just like your father
I wish that I could tell you that there would be no more long drives to appointments
No more needles
No more new people touching you and trying to get you to do things
I wish that I could tell you that there would be no more new equipment to get use to
No more procedures
But we both know that that would be a lie
I can however promise you that I will always be there to comfort you during those times
To love on you and tell you that it is going to be alright
To wipe away your tears
To make you laugh and smile afterwards
I promise that I am here with you
Each and every day, I pray for you
And I thank God for your healing that has already taken place and for the healing that is yet to come
I pray to God to guide everyone’s hands who comes in contact you
That He would bless the fruit of their hands and bless their families
I pray that you grow up to be a strong man of faith
Oh, my Kolin, I know that our weeks can be long and our days even longer
But here we stand
Together
Our little family
Together, we will make it
I promise you my love
Mommy is here