Have you ever woken up feeling so exhausted?
Both mentally and physically?
Just drained?
That has been my reality for the past several years
I thought that I had to be superwoman for Kolin and myself
and Jorge
I willed myself to do it all
To go to work and take care of my patients
To come home and take care of Kolin
To work on my blog when I should have been sleeping
But in all of my going and going, I failed to care for myself
I failed to nurture me and my wants and desires
I failed to care for my body
I failed to put time aside for me to just breathe
And one day, I woke up and realized that I did not have to live like this anymore
I realized that it was okay to walk away from things even if they were not bad
Even if it was something that I worked so very hard to obtain
Even if walking away would hurt
I learned that maybe some things were meant for just a season
To help you learn and to go grow
To help you get through difficult seasons along your journey
I learned that it was okay to just focus on yourself
And so yesterday, I submitted my 90-day resignation to place where I learned how to be a provider
A place where I have had the honor and privilege to care for entire families
And a place where I watched “my babies” grow into toddlers
This decision was not easy but Kolin needs me more
And I need myself
I’m not sure where this next season is going to take us, but I will continue to say “yes” only to the things that will serve me during this season